We had it.
We almost had it.
All those sweet talks, deep conversations, and random thoughts we had in our minds.
I was more attached than you were to me.
And it’s hard to feel like this everyday.
If you think I’m chasing you, well, I’m not. This isn’t a mandatory one, but I think I need to let it all out through this one since I can’t talk to you anymore.
You were my favorite person and buddy of all time, didn’t you know that? I remembered when I’m always reminding you that I won’t leave you no matter how hard the situation is.
But guess what, I just did it.
I’m not going to say I’m proud of leaving you, nor sad. Because basically speaking, I’m not.
I was always the one who’s always there for you when you can’t talk to your friends or even with your family. I said that you can always depend on me because yes, you can.
I’m not making any way just to make things get back the way the used to be. I can’t.
I might strangle you with words that I shouldn’t be saying that would make it hurt you, that’s why I think I made the right decision. You said you want to have time for yourself, then it’s all yours.
No matter how strong I am, there’s this point in my life that I really just want to break down. No matter how many ways I’m going to think of just to try and fix this, I’m tired of being ignored and to be treated like this by you, like my feelings don’t matter.
I didn’t left you because I found another one because I didn’t and I won’t. You think I became happy since I broke up with you? I didn’t. It still hurts a lot as days passed by.
What am I supposed to do? I’m trying to be strong. I wanted to be strong for the both of us even though there’s no even an ‘us’ anymore.
Never in my whole life I’m going to offer you any place in my heart other than giving it and being with you. You have it in the first place but you still chose to let me go of you.
Yes, I still love you. I tried everything and if you noticed that I’m still trying to talk to you, it means I’m still trying to bring us back.
I promised you way back then that I would fight for you against everything. I did and I still even defended you because I loved you.
How come you didn’t fought for me back?
But I can’t because I’m already tired. How am I supposed to believe that our promises are forever?
If you really love me, you won’t let me go. But you did. How am I supposed to believe you now? You gave up on us. You gave up on me.
Please, I think I’m not going to love you the same way anymore. But it doesn’t mean that I will stop caring.
I wouldn’t stop caring of you, I can’t and I won’t.
You’ve played a big role in my life. And how ironic that you’re still in it.
— (DISCLAIMER: Photos are not mine, credits to Google)